Sunday, November 05, 2006
What an emotional week...
*sigh*
You know, maybe we ARE meant to be together. I mean, why is it that everytime I want to let you go, everytime I want to raise the white flag, you would pull my hand and make me reconsider the decisions that I have made????
Why Jay????
Wouldnt it be easier for the two of us if we just pretended that we never met??? You wouldnt have to come back here and I would finally have peace of mind. We would go on with our lives, like as if nothing happened.
Wouldnt that be better for our sanity?????
But you had to to do THAT....you HAD to EXPLAIN yourself....you HAD to make sense of everything....
You know, sometimes I am just so tired of you and your silent treaments. You would disappear for weeks, without telling me what you were up to. And when I would reach my super fed-up point, you would return...with your explainations...and your apologies.
I know you Jay....you ARE like that....and there is nothing in this world that can change the way you are. Not even me.
And that is something that I am still trying to understand. That I am still trying to accept.
I should have pre-empted this when I knew you were a Pisces....cos you Pisces guys are famous for your silent treatments. You fly away without any notice. And without any warning, you will return and act like as if you have done nothing wrong. And we, the long-suffering women who are silly enough to fall in love with you Pisces guys, have to learn to just wipe our tears and smile and welcome you back into our arms when you have finally made the decision to return from your dream world.
And that is something that I have been doing for the past year. It is bad enough that we are separated by distance. So, to have you do this.....u know sometimes I just feel like strangling your neck....hahahaha......:P
But you have taught me the meaning of patience. I never thought I could last this long. I never thought I was this strong.....*sigh*
Jay, you know I truly love you so....but I wish you could be a bit more considerate. Dont make me worried all the time. Dont make me go through the paranoia and the fear of not knowing if the person that I love with my heart and soul is still alive or not. Dont you ever do that to me again........
Please...
`iRained
i loved @ 12:13 PM
| drop me a m@il here |
0 comments:
post a comment